Depression. The name describes it. Sort of like “what’s the color of an orange?” But I’ve had a lot of friends tell me they can’t imagine what having depression is like. That’s why I think we should rename the disease Dementors Depression.
“Dementors are among the foulest creatures that walk this earth. They infest the darkest, filthiest places, they glory in decay and despair, they drain peace, hope, and happiness out of the air around them… Get too near a Dementor and every good feeling, every happy memory will be sucked out of you. If it can, the Dementor will feed on you long enough to reduce you to something like itself… soulless and evil. You will be left with nothing but the worst experiences of your life.” ~ Remus Lupin
That’s what depression feels like. That’s exactly what it feels like. You’ll never be happy again. You’ll never feel passion again. You’ll never want to go outside again. You’ll never laugh again. You’ll never want to be with your friends again. You’ll never have a good thought again. You’ll never like yourself again. You’ll never have hope again. You’ll never want to be alive again.
J.K. Rowling’s Depression
It’s no accident that dementors are the perfect example of depression personified. J.K. Rowling suffered from depression for years. In fact, her depression inspired her to create the dementors.
“Yes. That is exactly what they are. It was entirely conscious. And entirely from my own experience. Depression is the most unpleasant thing I have ever experienced. It is that absence of being able to envisage that you will ever be cheerful again. The absence of hope. That very deadened feeling, which is so very different from feeling sad. Sad hurts but it’s a healthy feeling. It’s a necessary thing to feel. Depression is very different.” “I think [dementors] are the scariest things I’ve written.
It’s so difficult to describe [depression] to someone who’s never been there, because it’s not sadness. I know sadness. Sadness is to cry and to feel. But it’s that cold absence of feeling—that really hollowed-out feeling. That’s what Dementors are.” ~ J.K. Rowling
A Patronus and Chocolate
I would love to be able to conjure up a patronus to keep the dementor depression away. Maybe a lion. Or a stag. Or a nagging Jewish mother. Sadly I can’t conjure a patronus. But I have doctors who help me keep the dementor depression away. They conjured up Lamictal and Celexa. Lamictal to help my bipolar and dementor depression, the Celexa to add more muscle.
And then there’s chocolate. That’s what Lupin gives Harry after Harry is attacked by a dementor. Lupin says it helps. It does. Yes it does.